This morning’s post comes from my thoughts about 1 Corinthians 15:58 –
Therefore, my beloved brethern, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.
Recently I had a major life event – open heart surgery to replace my trashed aortic valve with a mechanical one.
The things I used to do or even wanted to do came to a complete stop as I navigated through the physical and psychological meanings of what this surgery entailed for me. My focus changed from me helping others to healing my own body. Day after day I wondered if this were my last – last talk with Hubbin, my kids, my littles, my friends. Would this be the last time I’d be feeding my puppy, or tossing the ball for him? Would I even need the walker the case manager ordered for me? After the surgery I went into Tachycardia a couple times and AFib four times, causing these thoughts to escalate.
But guess what? All this was normal. The feelings, the heart-related issues, and of course, the extra meds that were thrown at the all drama my heart did because it was so ticked off at being handled.
So what does this have to do with 1 Corinthians 15:58?
My focus on service to the Lord shifted. It was now allowing others to serve Him by helping me, which in my world, was previously unheard of. I was always the one that was fine and wondering what I could do. It meant that physically I was taking some downtime, and redirecting my energies. It’s now reaching out and simply listening to others as part of my new path. Some would say that’s not much, but in my corner of the world, it’s what I was guided to do in this moment.
Who knows? Something I may say may encourage another if they are stuggling with their own journey with the Lord, and once I’m through the recovery part of this life event, the Lord may redirect me yet again.
I’m listening…
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